Regrets

I know I have not been religiously blogging. probably dead

long ago just like my situation now.

I couldnt describe this forceful feeling that I am facing right

now. One year ago, I was being outcasted by group of bitches

who think they knew me better and doesnt want to tell me

why, here and there. That's 2011, a really hell year for me

to get through all these bullshit. Can you imagine?

ONE FUCKING YEAR OF TOLERATING BULLIES?

This year was probably the worst. I know that I will be graduating

soon. Somehow I just really want to get out of this school.

Get over and done with this useless course.

I was shouted at yesterday and I am NOT sorry because I still

truly think that I did my job and that bastard was simply letting

out his anger on me.

I am sick and tired of this life. Seriously, I DO NOT DESERVE

THIS AT ALL! I am capable of something else and I know it.

Because of money and lack of opportunities in Singapore,

I really can't study Arts Management and Fashion. I really

wanted to go and study this course. Alas, there is no

opportunity and I am stuck in a school where I can't do

anything and I am really upset.

2 more months to Vegas and New York. I really really

hope things will get better this year. All differences solved

and people who still hate me, I dun know what's your damn

problem and I have standby to delete you off upon graduation.

Dear God, is there another way?

Holidays in 1.5 weeks time...

2011 is a fucked up year. i hope 2012 will be a better year.

*cross fingers.

nov/dec, i overcame stats. fucked up classmates are damn

fucking arrogant. thought that i will copy their work

and put their bags so that i wont sit beside them.

oh well. sorry bitches! even though i didnt sit beside you,

(and i know you will have millions of imaginary excuses)

I STILL GOT A!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

even though coggy i didnt get an A becos i didnt do extra credit,

i made a lot of sacrifices to get A for my stats. thank God for my

sister and family for standing by me. im not a specialised or

major in a particular subject. nevertheless, im still happy

that i overcame my statistics and thank God for everything.

:)

tweet or facebook about me i don't give a shit. i know what

you are talking about. just run your mouth, becos all these

shaddy words are going to make me wealthy! :)

its only 6-8 months. i will survive this, after that you fucking

assholes can kiss my ass! :)

thanks! haters fuck off and yes! next time you are gonna be killed

by me! :)

Happy New Year to those people who care and appreciates me.

i only remember those who stood by me through thick and thin.

love you all (those who love me so!) XOXO! :)

after this fucking school is all over

NO MORE STUDYING!

screw this damn classmates. HATE THEM.

back to study. just get damn As and Bs and

get the hell out of that hell hole.

wtf.

its coming to an end soon..

yeah. in another 5 weeks in hell.

i just want things to go well. however, its not!

yes, life is not a bed of roses. obstacles are

bound to be around the corners for you to be trip

and you have to be extra careful of thorns coming

in your way. Most importantly, you need to learn

from those hurts and failures.

i am still unsure if its a blessing in disguise or

what, being in this insane school apparently appears

to be such an absolute childish environment. people

are starting to show their true colours and cats just

keep scratching their paws against the walls.

i hate those people. 6-8 more months. i wish you just

pass by as fast as you can. hopefully reduce the pain and

sufferings. somehow i cant take it anymore of such

nonsense..

since i have been in this school for a year. what is another

1 more year? torture!!

i have been thinking though. if im really such a pain in the

ass, are my actions really harmful to the extent that will

kill you?

seriously. you are really shitheads. you will never get to

understand me and think through what you have done.

dun worry i did my reflections and i dare to admit my

wrongdoings. i am repentent and i move on. i do not

harp on issues that are ages ago and haters just remember

them in angst. *shrugs. grow up pls. so immature.

im just glad that ive learnt something about human beings

and their cruel intentions.

selfish, self centered.

you have no compassion at all. :/

1 more year.


this is what i need to remind myself.
i have angst but after my close ones listened to
my never ending whinings, i felt so much better.
i really really need to control myself before i get insane.
thank God for ppl around me especially my family and
close friends, if not i will really have suicidal thoughts.

this is the toughest and suckiest school days of my life
ever.

i will not give up nevertheless. becos i paid for my education
and i am here to learn not to get bullied and insulted by
assholes.

Good nite sweet dreams.