VOGUE THAT FASHIONISTA!

2012-01-04T08:09:00.001-08:00

2011 is a fucked up year. i hope 2012 will be a better year.

*cross fingers.

nov/dec, i overcame stats. fucked up classmates are damn

fucking arrogant. thought that i will copy their work

and put their bags so that i wont sit beside them.

oh well. sorry bitches! even though i didnt sit beside you,

(and i know you will have millions of imaginary excuses)

I STILL GOT A!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

even though coggy i didnt get an A becos i didnt do extra credit,

i made a lot of sacrifices to get A for my stats. thank God for my

sister and family for standing by me. im not a specialised or

major in a particular subject. nevertheless, im still happy

that i overcame my statistics and thank God for everything.

tweet or facebook about me i don't give a shit. i know what

you are talking about. just run your mouth, becos all these

shaddy words are going to make me wealthy! :)

its only 6-8 months. i will survive this, after that you fucking

assholes can kiss my ass! :)

thanks! haters fuck off and yes! next time you are gonna be killed

by me! :)

Happy New Year to those people who care and appreciates me.

i only remember those who stood by me through thick and thin.

love you all (those who love me so!) XOXO! :)

2011-11-26T00:18:00.000-08:00

after this fucking school is all over

NO MORE STUDYING!

screw this damn classmates. HATE THEM.

back to study. just get damn As and Bs and

get the hell out of that hell hole.

wtf.

2011-11-19T21:15:00.000-08:00

its coming to an end soon..

yeah. in another 5 weeks in hell.

i just want things to go well. however, its not!

yes, life is not a bed of roses. obstacles are

bound to be around the corners for you to be trip

and you have to be extra careful of thorns coming

in your way. Most importantly, you need to learn

from those hurts and failures.

i am still unsure if its a blessing in disguise or

what, being in this insane school apparently appears

to be such an absolute childish environment. people

are starting to show their true colours and cats just

keep scratching their paws against the walls.

i hate those people. 6-8 more months. i wish you just

pass by as fast as you can. hopefully reduce the pain and

sufferings. somehow i cant take it anymore of such

nonsense..

since i have been in this school for a year. what is another

1 more year? torture!!

i have been thinking though. if im really such a pain in the

ass, are my actions really harmful to the extent that will

kill you?

seriously. you are really shitheads. you will never get to

understand me and think through what you have done.

dun worry i did my reflections and i dare to admit my

wrongdoings. i am repentent and i move on. i do not

harp on issues that are ages ago and haters just remember

them in angst. *shrugs. grow up pls. so immature.

im just glad that ive learnt something about human beings

and their cruel intentions.

selfish, self centered.

you have no compassion at all. :/

2011-10-09T09:08:00.000-07:00

1 more year.

this is what i need to remind myself.
i have angst but after my close ones listened to
my never ending whinings, i felt so much better.
i really really need to control myself before i get insane.
thank God for ppl around me especially my family and
close friends, if not i will really have suicidal thoughts.

this is the toughest and suckiest school days of my life
ever.

i will not give up nevertheless. becos i paid for my education
and i am here to learn not to get bullied and insulted by
assholes.

Good nite sweet dreams.

2011-08-09T08:00:00.000-07:00

what's new?

Happy National Day Singapore!
(though i really feel like getting out of here now.)

i hereby declare UNLV is the worst school ever
attended. it seems that everywhere i go, there are
always tons and tons of problems!

or is it me? (ok haters get the fuck out of here!)

i dunno why, it seems that whatever i do, there's always
conflicts. ESPECIALLY SMALL MATTERS ...

like snatching seats. WTF... really? hello immature shitheads!
do you have to be so immature, fighting over seats?!?
oh yes fat bitch. dun think i dunno what you are doing behind
my back.

if anyone asks me why am i so cautious and dun trust ppl.
this is my answer to you shitheads:

BECAUSE OF YOUR ACTIONS!

im dead serious! who the hell dare to trust you when you
are lying through your teeth and your actions are SO OBVIOUS
of wanting to cheat people. of cos i have to be DAMN CAREFUL.

like duh..

stupid.

i want to get out of here asap. i hate this environment filled with
crazy people and i DON'T TRUST PEOPLE EASILY BECAUSE
PEOPLE BETRAY ME! AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

thanks. im done.

2011-05-30T11:07:00.000-07:00

maybe im just dumb in some ways of not being
observant enough? maybe what the ex-mentor
i had in the past was right? how true. school's
pretty much like a hell hole. people turning the
tables and misunderstanding happens and the worst
part of it is that you are "involved" unknowingly.

felt like war. learning politics, how to keep your
mouth shut and say the right things. bitching,
backstabbing, misunderstanding occurs.

if im too honest, i have already made myself open
and people will start to attack me immediately by
using my name and words to spread around the world.

sucks isnt it? i dunno who has ever experience this
kind of feeling of being treat nice at first and the next
thing you know you are outcasted.

clearly, i dun deserve to be treated like this. i know how
it feels like to be outcasted and ridiculed by people who
dun even know me at all and start mixing things that
are not true at all.

im learning. its a training ground for me to start building
up my muscles, move and grow to become a better person.

i wish things will be better. sooner or later, i will have
to face my demons.

thank God for family and close friends. :))

that i appreciate it a lot! :)))

Good night.

2011-05-19T10:21:00.000-07:00

if i have the power to do anything what i want,

hahaha. you bitches better watch out man.
becos i will scratch and slap you in the face.
hahahahahahaha!

2011-04-30T10:00:00.000-07:00

i failed to think long term.

nevertheless, maybe its my downfall.
people made use of each other to make it to the top.
recently, too many incidents made me think
straight. no matter how hopeful or kind you are
in treating people. THEY WILL NEVER APPRECIATE.

why?

becos they think its a transaction.

true? VERY TRUE.

true friends rarely exist and you have gone through
thick and thin with each other no matter what.
for my uni life, bitching, backstabbing, catfights,
secret smses sent to each other to ensure they bring
down the person's morale.

ultimately, its all about jealously and intimidation.

not true? you should think deeper.
my encounters made me think a lot about the situations
around me. most are jeering and cheering about my
downfall.

hello.? its not the end of me my dear enemies.
sticks and bones may break my bones but all those words
are gonna make me wealthy.

yes, im not happy at all. there are many times i felt
sad and terribly misunderstood. they dun know they
just messed with the wrong person.

i learn to forgive, and it will be a tough session for me
to bite through 1.5 years of uni life.

take note. people make use of each other. i chose to be
nice, but some bastards and bitches took it for granted.
enough said. i should start to stand up for myself.

what nourishes me does not make me stronger at all.

Good nite world. even you hate me. Thank you.

2011-04-16T23:45:00.000-07:00

Public Relations

i cant stand fake people. but sometimes people just need
to be fake in order to get through things quick and fast.
well, painless too.

even its obvious, there's no difference at all.

people like to work with other nice people.
i agree.

i dun really care much abt it. becos no use being
nice while someone talks bad about you and tries to do
something sneaky behind your back. i prefer to be
truthful.

how dreadful.

bye.

2011-04-01T07:45:00.000-07:00

truth?

ok here's one.

i dun like most of the people i have met.
especially those who tried too hard to be funny.

grow up man.

btw, if you really dun like a person, just say
it straight to him/her face.

dun try to be funny and do all sorts of crazy
acts for the sake of keeping friendship.

sorry. i dun like this kind of friendship.
stupid, lame tactics dun help.

go away. its clearly your fault, yet blaming
people makes you useless.

i dun want this kind of meaningless friendship.
stay away from me. i rather have 5 good friends
than so many hypocrites and people who are
selfish.

bye! :)

2011-03-23T09:11:00.000-07:00

i dunno. it matters only for a period of time.
after that it ended.

that's fast. becos there's nothing to talk about.

THE END.

2011-03-16T08:11:00.000-07:00

if you ask me what i look for in a guy.

i can tell you a million things.
and these million things will not happen in real life.

i always look for good ones yet fall for the bad ones.
what the fuck is wrong with this emotion.
is there a lesson to learn? some may say yes. im just
not the lucky one.

of cos i wish for the best man for myself. the problem
is this:

will he be able to accept me for the way i am and be
willing to do anything for me?

i felt that i am not fit to love and love is not at my side.
wrong timing? maybe. too many bitches around? maybe.
men are too immature. yes definitely.

i am just disappointed and frustrated. sometimes to the
extent i cannot take it anymore. all i wish for, is not for
another mistake that wastes my time, money, youth, and
most importantly, i don't want to get hurt again.

if all else fails, i'm going to be a celibate.

maybe that's the final solution.

2011-02-10T10:07:00.000-08:00

what the fuck am i thinking!

if its already impossible, why the fuck am i
still thinking about it? i really hate myself
for thinking nonsensically.

its not right. its fucking not right from the
start.

seriously, what has happened to me.

2011-01-29T08:55:00.000-08:00

its very difficult.

that's all i can say. dun think so much.
too many differences. too many loopholes,
too many obstacles, too many false hopes,
too many things that are incompatible.

i think im unfit to be in love. its not
in my favor. Good night.

2011-01-12T05:48:00.000-08:00

for real?

i hope its not what i think.
its too much! stop phuking with
my heart!!!

even though its happening for a few days
already. its not good and healthy.
im fucking scared now. my first failed
becos of like this. im so fucking not going
to let it happen again.

no doubt there are hints here and there.
its still not fucking good! i need to
focus on my studies and career i havent
even launch yet!

fuck lah. this emotional roller coaster is
fucked up. i really dun want to mix it with
biz at all!!!

PLS I DO NOT WANT THIS NOW!

2011-01-04T11:22:00.000-08:00

it varies.

i have no single idea how a person can insult
intelligence when there's nothing to insult in the first
place.

*shrugs. its like teaching a kid to shut his/her mouth
in class. immature is the word.

that's how weird people expressed themselves wrongly.

i dun care if people hate my photos or think that im no
smarter than them, fuck you, i am just being myself.
i am a human being who makes mistakes and most of
the time like Angelea from ANTM Cycle 15 says,

"I'm gonna keep it real."

im fully aware that my friends sec/poly/uni are not real.
everyone is making a damn good use of each other and oh
frankly, if any of you read this now, im purely blunt.

i like being honest and truthful to myself. i hate lies for real.
if you think i dont trust you, have you ask yourself a question:

"what have i fucking done to make Mel not trust me?"

well, let me tell you the answer you have been dying to
find out. as there's an old saying, "The Truth will set you free!"

Mel says: "its because you are not truthful and honest."

simple? hell ya! of cos you must have done something
terribly wrong and sneakish that why you can't get my
trust.

i know who lied and who doesn't. i know who like and
dislike me. DO YOU THINK I FUCKING CARE?
its disappointing to know that people you have known
for 10 years plus or somewhere there are not worthy
to be friends becos they are always up to something bad
(which always happen).

you must be asking, "what!?!"

shut the fuck up man! of cos you did! i will trash it
all out when i get to see you. but for some, they STILL
don't get it.

that's what i call FUCKING STUPID.

frankly, making use of immature tactics does not
get you anywhere or makes you smarter than me.
simply put, you are insecure and not confident about
yourself.

let's face it, you have major issues. settle with yourself
before trashing it against other people. its not worthy
to prove too hard that you are way too smart for people
to notice. we get it. you are the "smart" one while we
are all the "stupid" ones. satisfied for your bitch fits?

thanks. i am so "stupid" *roll eyes. this just get nowhere.

sometimes i really want to get really good friends but
just too bad im not blessed with 10 of them. its barely
even 5.

rubbish. what the hell am i doing from primary till
now??? i admire people with good friends and sticking
through thick and thin with each other no matter what
happens. these are cool people with guts and loyalty.

in this world, nowadays, all people are for themselves.
its no use to be nice anymore, becos people are just
getting crazier, weirder, selfish, vulgar, etc.

this post is dedicated to people and readers who also
feel the same damn thing as me. love you all. seriously,
if you are having a crisis now, dun fucking give up hope.
becos you are worth more than those fucked up people
whose brains are run over by trucks big time.

peace everyone and fuck you immature shitheads.

good nite! :))))

2010-12-31T07:35:00.000-08:00

the best things in life are free

i wish. nevertheless, its going to be over in another
20 mins time. its time for 2010 recap:

jan: started off ok, without much expectations. i thought
i would be in MOE for a long period of time and even have
thoughts of taking up a part time degree in mass com or
fashion deg.

feb - june: dreading for weeks, i always had a bad working
relationship with bosses. dun ask me why. maybe just sway
or something but i know some reasons they had
against me are very racist. well, that's their problem.
i'm chinese and i'm proud of it.

during this period of time, i really had learn tons of things
in school. Gusto, students, teachers, the school politics and
what goes behind the staff room. whats good and bad.
thank God for opening up my eyes. people are not as perfect
and ideal as we thought.

july: quit my job, i missed my kids and colleagues very much
but still best things have to end too. pursuing higher learning
that gives me a better prospect is my priority in life. dun have
to be in lowly levels. therefore, i enrolled myself to UNLV
for a full time degree. i hate the feeling not having money
and even have to work part time (AGAIN!)
i really hate part time jobs, people dun treat you well and that
pisses me off.

july - dec: projects, exams, assignments, new classmates,
more dramas and little misfits at times. i do enjoy school life
once again. nevertheless, i can't wait to finish off this 2 years
degree and get my moolahs once again.

ups and downs are always here. i realised there are always a
point of time there will be mishaps and i will breakdown and
cry, while most times, i really feel very fortunate becos of
my beloved family and friends support.

goodbye 2010. ushering 2011. i hope that things will be
much more smoother and i will not give up hope.

thanks everyone. have a good year ahead of you and keep
your resolutions and dreams alive.

good luck! and happy 2011! :))

2010-12-25T00:31:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!

though i have nothing to do at home.
i prefer to be alone and undisturbed.

beginning to hate school becos of so many
unfortunate incidents happening lately.
i hate that Claire bitch. i dun care if she's holding
a high post in UNLV. picking people and accusing
wrongly is not how you settle issues. well,
i believe she has an issue. just stay away from me
stupid bitch :))

ya, some of the classmates who think they are
fucking smart and thinks that im complaining too
much? pls, fucking grow up. you never experience the
shittest things in life. wait till you experience it and
i say you are complaining too much then you will
realised that your fairy tale life is just miserable.
kiss my ass fuckers.

im glad its over. going to earn my moolahs and
get over this 2 years course once and for all. people
are just getting bitchier and weirder each day.

tolerate and get my As! :)

new resolution in school:

from today onwards i'm so gonna play PR and
politics in school. no more revealing too much
about things. these classmates are not friendly
and helpful. especially that M girl. i really detest her,
lazy pig.

oh well. enough negativity. bye.

2010-12-12T09:39:00.001-08:00

the grade does not sit well with me just becos of
a fucking heavy weight test. oh well. its still myself to
blame.

random. im starting to hate this kind of course i can't
be good at. why can't they have Parsons here in
Singapore? distant learning and more exposure.
i prefer learning Arts Management.

PLS! I got an A! i know myself. i worked damn hard
for it. how can i possibly get a lower grade in
Art Appreciation? its not a fair to me.

off to bed. no point thinking, its already over.

2010-11-27T10:40:00.000-08:00

why do i keep falling in love with the wrong person.

or should i rephrase my question,

why the hell am i thinking!

its wrong. very very wrong. its not realistic!!!
why the hell am i still thinking about it!

to be honest, i will never get the person i like!
its so sickening everytime my heart plays with me.
its always like this, how to think positive?

school sucks. i failed one of my art test but i will not
let it get into me! i still have other things to care of.
this is the first time i failed my test. never in the history
i failed an arts test.

i hate leechers and accusers who do nothing and
talk too much trash. they should shut the fuck up!

anyway, i'm so not gonna group with the same people
again. no initiative, not willing to help, not here and there.
fuck lah, im going alone and getting the marks by myself.

suck on you stupid asses!

no point getting angry. becos i will get old.
i so can't wait to go overseas and get my job done
at the same time, enjoy a great time!

Grade A here i come! i will get you!!!

2010-11-19T19:30:00.001-08:00

deleted posts.

life sucks for now.

2010-11-10T08:12:00.000-08:00

i'm trying to stay positive.

it seems that all things are starting to be
not what i expected.

it sucks.

all i want is just As for all my modules.
is it that difficult??

2010-11-07T07:26:00.000-08:00

now i realise there are more people who are
more dominating than me.

my goodness. never mind. i believe i can work on other
things creatively on my own.

:))

Dear God,

i hope you could give me some inspiration tomorrow.

Yours Sincerely,
Melissa :)

2010-11-05T01:46:00.000-07:00

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2010-10-28T10:10:00.000-07:00

i found you again in another person's profile.

and then again,

its fucking useless.

i should forget it. its all over over over over over over over over.

time to hit my notes. bye.

2010-10-23T07:51:00.000-07:00

i found you.

so i asked myself again.

for what?

there's no connection. what the fuck am i doing?
i feel like adding, but again, NO USE.
becos im bloody not thick skin and im not courageous
enough.

2010-10-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

why the hell did i delete that post?

anyway, its over. im done with that stupid bitch.
i really think too much giving in is a huge no-no.
i dun care if 10 years of friendship is primary or
secondary. anyone who takes me for granted should
just bug off.

im done with them.

that's it. my last time saying this.

2010-10-03T07:37:00.000-07:00

i hate when people associate me with a someone whom i truly
think i am NOT AT ALL. COME ON pls! it doesn't reflect good
on you either.

use your fucking brains!

2010-09-26T07:36:00.000-07:00

i think im in a wrong school. i wish i can be
somewhere else, new york or london doing a deg
in fashion. you know i don't have a single choice
here, no doubt there are couple of fashion schools in
Singapore.

the fact is,

SINGAPORE'S FASHION INDUSTRY CANNOT MAKE
IT AT ALL!

how to walk and talk about fashion? there are not a single
chance here!

that's why im stuck in learning other courses i don't like
at all!

i hate boundaries and limited choices. i love being free and
do whatever i love to do at my best knowing that i can
exceed expectations. im trying my best not to hate Singapore
but sometimes, circumstances forced me to do this.

i don't hate, its the lousy industry.

lack of opportunities here. im so gonna move on to other
plans after my struggling graduation.

i don't care. i know i will not be in the service industry that's
for sure. if you are wondering if im making a confession,
YES, i am damn serious about it. in order to cut out for
this industry i need to be focus and wait for opportunities or
miracles to befall on me.

so many things to do yet so little time!

exams next week onwards and i dun think my birthday is
going to be great. the past birthdays sucks becos so many
people dun understand me. its miserable. laugh all you
want losers i dun care. i change my destiny and i control
my life the way i want it to be.

im super thankful for my family. they are the best in giving
me wonderful birthdays and i am very grateful no matter
what.

i dun care if you call me a complaint bitch. you are no better
than me either. its MY OPINIONS.

damn these freaking insincere people.

2010-09-26T03:15:00.000-07:00

i hate to give on too much at times.

especially people who are really selfish and self centered.
thinking about themselves are the first thought
in their dim-witted minds.

pls, if a person has something on, IT IS OK to accomodate
and respect the party's wishes! don't keep insisting the
person to do it this way. for example, "i know you are
going to do this, BUT I STILL NEED TO IT FOR ME "

overworked, underpaid, that doesn't sound like a good
human being life style.

therefore, i may decide to move on. no point giving
in too much and listen to stupid lies about the things
in life.

JUST SHUT UP FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!

these people are the real hypocrites! i hate it when they
involve others and ended up disappointing people.

this is a hard promise i have to make to myself:

I NEVER WILL BE SOFT HEARTED AND GIVE
IN TO THESE PEOPLE!

2010-09-13T18:43:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

pls bless my paper even though its only 10%.

2010-09-12T08:55:00.000-07:00

he ate my heart. he ate ate ate my heart.

i wished upon a star. i hope all the questions are
relatively easy to score. not feeling well now, all thanks to
sore throat. now im at loss, i can't really remember what
ive learnt since afternoon. shit im done for...

its tough. uni life is so different. no time to talk about
love, no time to go out as often, no time for shopping :(
not much income to spend, thinking how to get through
this semester. blah ...

i have to tolerate for another 2 years.

hopefully its all good and i graduate with a happy
cert and happy heart.

2010-09-05T09:01:00.000-07:00

HELLO READERS! or maybe spies...

i dun care. haha.

im not particularly a fan of JLo. i found this
song SO me!

LOUBOUTIN!

Taking back my love

You said you’d change
But still nothin’
You’re still the same
I’m just a part-time lover
And I’m the blame
Shoulda went away
But yet I stayed…
With a part-time lover

See some days you would love me
Then you don’t, then you do, then you won’t,
Then you’re here, then you’re gone, I’m alone.
Now you got me stressin’ out on the phone
But it’s the last time
I’m moving on
I’m throwin on my Louboutins

I left the state
And changed everything
No more
For the part-time lover
What goes around
Comes back around
And then you get what you deserve
You part-time lover

See some days you would love me
Then you don’t, then you do, then you won’t,
Then you’re here, then you’re gone, I’m alone.
Now you got me stressin out on the phone
But it’s the last time
I’m moving on
I’m throwin on my Louboutins

Watch these red bottoms
And the back of my jeans
Watch me go by babe

You don’t know what you got until it’s gone
Tail lights is all you’ll see
Watch that Benz exit that driveway

I’m throwin on my Louboutins

Watch me walk it out
Walk it out
Walk this right up out the house
Walk it out
Boy, watch me walk it out
Walk it out
Walk this right up out the house
I’m throwin on my Louboutins (out the house)

assignments, tests, exams, work, problems.
im not sure if im enjoying life or not. its so
stressful yet im still hopeful for good results.
anway, i really hope no shit coming up.

think positive!!!! :)

2010-09-03T11:31:00.000-07:00

friday!

NOT.

still got tons of things to do.
its irony. i can do some typing here but not my essays.
there are so many things i need to do but still
cannot remember.

so the solution is...

take notes.

lol. that's what iPhone is all about. thanks to the newest
technology, im very lazy and corpulent. im exercising!!!!
like everyday!!! yes i will make sure i will get a hot body!!!!

good nite y'all! hope you have a good weekend while i get
back to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!

2010-09-01T11:33:00.000-07:00

you are not sorry.

the issue is on me. i misunderstood. right from the
start there's nothing. i tried my hardest and it just
didn't happen.

its my fault. despite calling you once a month, its still
the same fucking answer,

SOME OTHER DAY.

fuck you. you are never sorry. why the fuck should i think of you?

i made the right choice not calling or texting you.
at least you told me about the ans to back off. thanks really.
ive moved on. you wont see this anyway. you disappoint me
greatly.

becos im not pretty. that's your fucking problem.

2010-08-18T12:05:00.000-07:00

i dun wish to think about it.

its not what i wish for. i used to think that
love is like fairy tales and now i know that
all these thoughts of mine are lifted from
these stories and giving me the courage to
love properly.

in reality, i just need a good tight slap that
its not real. after reading xiaxue's blog.
i applaud her for standing up for girls and
women. im have no idea why there are some
girls want to be object of lust?

are you really desperate for a man's attention?

i really dun get it. including men in those forums.
mad disgusting. they think that those are saucy
stories to them but to me

THEY ARE JUST SHAMELESS FUCKTARDS!

after reading all these, im starting to realise that why
people are starting to look at alternatives.
my first relationship is a total failure. so much
disappointment and sadness.

i have doubts. much doubts now. thank you cheaters
for enlighting me how you fuckers cheat. you don't
deserve to be a human!

may the diseases be with you fuckers.

2010-08-17T09:28:00.000-07:00

its a terrible day, literally.

i hate the worst situations that ive thought of.
becos it came true after thinking about it.

sometimes its me.

bad things happen to good men. i know that.
but isn't this too much for me to experience
in A WEEK?

pls. im really fed up of all these.

people are just complicated. or rather there are
too many unreasonable people. i can't believe it,
even those who i dun even know and work with
are lazy to do it.

dun make me start it. i hate to repeat things.

i'll take it as a retribution if i have seriously done
really wrong (until now i still think i have not done
anything wrong loh)

hai. sign. ive got no comments.

good nite world.

2010-08-14T09:13:00.001-07:00

sometimes, i really wish i wasn't born in Singapore.

after too many shitty incidents here, im starting to have
a stereotype that the people in here are just way too
much. typically - unreasonable.

maybe its just me, they do not meet my expectations.
i mean, really!

first: too many unreasonable people whenever i go.

second: i can't get the things i want.

third: freaking inflexible.

fourth: everywhere people are just getting weirder and
ruder, unreasonable.

fifth: people whom i met are not genuine. (only for
some)

sixth: working class are unprofessional and hypocritical

seventh: people whom are still complaining and never
stop whining.

ONE WORD:

UNLUCKY.

im just so freaking unlucky in life. im
not blaming people for being so stupid (which
in my opinion, i think they are).

i do reflect upon myself. im always asking
myself. What have i done?

i want to learn to be a better person. i want to
change myself to be pleasant and be mature.

is it so difficult?

in life, there's no true friends but only comes
RARELY.

omg. this world is insane. im sick and tired already.
sometimes i ever thought of leaving this world for
a better paradise. i still tell myself, my family needs
me. im always trying to think positively and trying my
best to strive as hard as i can.

i don't know. im starting to be very demoralized
by all these things.

i really hope things will get better. i really hope. pls
DO NOT give me anymore problems! i had enough
of it already.

2010-08-11T10:33:00.000-07:00

Dear Life,

im always very appreciative of what my family has provided
me. nothing can be replaceable. i can't type it out in words.
though we have ups and downs. my family is always there
for me. i love them wholeheartedly.

i have a sudden heavy load of sadness inside me. sometimes,
i yearn to grow up faster and now, i don't want to grow up so
fast.

throughout my life experiences, i do really wonder why am i
so unlucky meeting disgusting and horrible people and i wish
they never exist in the first place.

is it me? is it because of my skin colour? is it because i am
not a pleasant person? is it because i am ugly?
is it because i am too loud? is it because i am too incapable?
is it because i have an impossible dream? is it because the
whole world thinks i am insignificant?

i pondered this everyday and i can't find any answers.

i do lie. i sinned. i am human. what do they expect from me?
i am starting to be indifferent. hoping that change will come
soon. hoping miracles will strike on me.

sometimes i thought, what happens if i were to die early?
will i be able to meet God and ask Him all the questions
i longed wanted to ask Him? in fact, i miss Him. i always
hide away because i am ashamed of what i had done and i
always think He will not forgive me.

i dare not trust people around me because i always feel betrayed
and most of my friends suck. i admire other people who are
terribly good looking and have tons of friends. i really wonder
how they have good brains to study and get good grades / jobs
and everyday people are there to be concern whenever they
are down and out.

me? don't talk about it. i only appreciate a few people in life
and they are my family members. blood is thicker than water.
i still thank God so much for them. without my family, i think
i could be something else worst.

maybe because i am a problematic person to be in a relationship.
is it my fault that the guy doesn't meet my expectations?
i always think i am dating jerks because i want to feel love.
but its all over. i decided that i should be celibate or single for
the rest of my life that's why i don't date.

i am just afraid of things in failing relationships. after so much
heartbreaks and fallen expectations. i just couldn't give myself
another chance to date.

i have too many complains everyday that i am fully aware
people around me are not please with it and are getting
very annoyed.

sometimes Life, i don't know what to do. i am just
confused now because of so many reasons.

but starting to think positively, i just want to lead
a happy and fulfilling life.

once again, thank God for everything he has provided
me. i will never forget His love and grace.

good nite.

2010-08-09T09:22:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Singapore!

i know sometimes i do complain so much about the
living and people here. its still my Home truly!

:)

no other places can be compared here.
thank God im born in here and im proud to be a
true blue Singaporean!

another life is gonna begin soon. another 2 weeks
counting and im pretty excited about it. it will be
guaranteed stressful and unexpected.

i just hope i will meet more meaningful and really
good classmates when i start my course.

2 years is going to be fast. i hate to say this, but
i am a student now! sucks to be unemployed and
no money rolling into your bank. that equates to
no desired goods, but i can only dream them. :(

never mind, with this cert and a guaranteed that
i will be going to the next level and not despised
as, "HUH YOU ONLY POLY CERT NIA?"

its extremely competitive these days. i just
need to step up (not to dance) but work extra
for my dough and future.

time passes quite fast.

have a good holiday everyone! :)

this post is gonna be the most vulgar one

2010-08-03T10:16:00.001-07:00

Professionalism MY ASS LAH.

seriously Fucking Lousy? OH YEAH!

i want to give chocolates to your enemies
is my business!

disrespectful? take a good fucking look at yourself
before pointing fingers at someone else. YOU STUPID
FUCK!

why the fuck are you fucking doing? you think by asking
your buddy RABBI to agree and fucking gang up against me?
even those who are not involve to wants to be involved.

WHAT THE FUCK REALLY! YOU ARE SO TOTALLY
FUCKED UP! DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKING THING TO DO?
SERIOUSLY YOU SHOULD BE CONCENTRATING ON
STUDENTS THAN ME RIGHT?

YOU SO FUCKING PROF-ASS-IONAL!

dun you get it? i followed according to your fucking
instructions and now you want to FUCKING LIE AND
FABRICATE STORIES????

WHAT THE FUCK? DO YOU KNOW YOU ARE SABOTAGING
YOURSELF?

WHAT AN ASSHOLE!

so im irresponsible, lazy, disrespectful. IS THAT WHAT YOU'VE
GOT? ive fulfilled my duty and given everything back on your
fucking desk. AND I THINK YOU DELIBERATELY WENT
TO TEAR THE PAPER SO YOU CAN SATISFY YOUR ANGER
BY ASKING ME TO COME BACK ANOTHER TIME AGAIN
TO "SURRENDER" THINGS TO YOU.

OH YEAH, AND YOU ARE SO FREE TO SURF FACEBOOK,
FORUMS TO COMPLAIN AND DOING YOUR OWN
PERSONAL STUFF DURING WORKING HOURS SUCH
AS GRASSROOT LEADER SHIT?

AGAIN, WHAT THE FUCK? WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU
TO TALK TO ME ABOUT PROFESSIONALISM?

you are such a damn free fucker. you are unsatisfied. you have
such low esteem in yourself.

i insulted you? oh pls. LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE FIRST
BEFORE POINTING FINGERS AGAIN.

seriously this is getting nowhere. i took my bow and exit
then now you want to rack up the past and tell Principal
your fucking miserable, fabricated LIES which is only
one sided story. do you think she will buy your fucking story
filled with filthy lies?

i had enough of your FUCKING CRAP.

the moment i exit out of the door, I WASHED MY HANDS
OFF.

you want to complain. GO FUCKING AHEAD. YOU
HAVE NO RIGHT.

most of it, YOU GOT NO FUCKING POWER, SO DON'T
BOTHER TO SHOW OFF.

YOU STUPID FUCK! FUCK OFF AND YES FUCK YOU
VERY MUCH. I'M DONE WITH YOU AND I DON'T WANT
TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN. YOU FUCKING RACIST.
YOU SHOULD FUCKING GO TO JAIL AND GET YOUR
FUCKING ASS WHIPPED 10000000 TIMES FOR BEING
A RACIST AND A STUPID FUCK.

FOR GOODNESS SAKE, YOU HATE YOUR JOB, YOU
FUCKING USE YOUR DAMN FUCKING RETARDED
BRAIN TO QUIT LAH!

SO SIMPLE.

oh, and i dun mean anything what good words i said
when i shook hands with you as i have pointed middle
fingers behind your back.

you have a well deserved name call FUCKING LOUSY!
OMG. such a genius name ever! totally described how damn
fucked up are you shithead.

TAKE THAT YOU FUCKING SMELLY SHIT!

2010-07-26T07:36:00.000-07:00

im confused.

over pennies and cents. im really disappointed of myself
because sometimes i don't have the guts to turn people down.

HAI, major sign.

im really really disappointed and in the end, people are
happy instead of me.

i dunno why im like that. its ALWAYS like that. i should be
more hard-hearted should i? im feeling a damn pinched!

i hate this feeling. no money, can't do so many things.

bad day to start off with. im not going to think about it,
it brings me tears.

2 days left to good byes. i will miss you kids.

2010-07-23T10:09:00.001-07:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

FUCK YOU - Lily Allen

2010-07-23T08:13:00.000-07:00

Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of all the
hatred you harbor

So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who
can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you (Fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get,
Do you get a little kick out of
being small minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it

Do you,
Do you really enjoy living a
life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where
your soul should be
Your losing control of it and
it's really distasteful

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of all the
hatred you harbor

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch!!!!!!

im loving this song. not becos im rude and
vulgar but SOME PEOPLE DESERVE TO BE
CALLED IN THIS WAY!

:)))

2010-07-22T07:40:00.000-07:00

isn't it STUPID if an auntie wants to compare herself to me?

i mean, really. FUCKING STUPID!

comparing to people is just like knowing yourself losing to
the other person.

sensible? YES!

i don't regard that stupid special needs educator auntie as
my mentor. i dun learn anything from her at ALL!
anyway, she can say whatever she wants. becos it will still be
ignored! so disrespectful! no wonder everybody in the school
hates them.

haha. not just a joke, THEY ARE THE JOKES!

seriously, you are fucking working adults and yet still
behave so kiddy! why the hell govt pay you $3k for?
go facebook? complaint about the world? bitch about
teachers? go home early? rude to your subordinates?
don't do work and instead busy doing grassroot leader's
activities????

WTF?

i didn't know doing grassroot activities also included into
the job scope!!!!

OMGGGG. I'M SO LOVING HER JOB!

can get $3k plus to do NOTHING!

TSK.

people who live in glasshouses shouldn't throw stones.

for goodness sake, you give educator a bad name.

2010-07-17T11:23:00.000-07:00

im at the grey area.

sometimes i feel that i have no luck in love.
until i found out the main reason these few
days.

i dunno what to say. im being too unrealistic
and still think that love is similar to fairy tales.
i realized that the men i like are always in
unrealistic categories.

just lazy to type it down. i feel sick and tired of
hoping things will happen. becos i know in the
first place, i DO NOT HAVE ANY FACTORS.

all are taken away, avoided, forgotten, neglected,
selfish, ungrateful, stupid and assholes.

frankly, i dunno when the day will come, becos
im afraid to fall in love again and all the problems
will come back to me. SAME OLD SHIT.

in short, im just scared of getting myself hurt,
sadness, massive anger and hatred. (all the negativity)

so, im just on the verge of giving up. no matter
how much i try, the results will still be the same:
NO LUCK, NO FATE, NO BODY!

2010-07-11T08:32:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqoUuYXedOo

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

im wondering why am i feeling so blue today.
i know its going to be a roller coaster ride.

sooner or later, i will have to face it.
i felt terrible even trying on shoes and i realised
the main causes of the sadness are:

leaving school and moolahs running out.

im so glad that some of the teachers are really
nice to me. thank you so much for keeping me
sane. unlike some stupid problematic outcasters.

ya i know that i will be tad emotional at the same
time im also happy as i will be moving on to the
next level.

anyway, i know its painful at the same time
delightful.

life goes on.

all righty. i gotta sleep now. preparing for
a big SALE! i hope its all good. :))

good nite and everybody loves monday..

ya right.

haha. CIAO!

p.s: Despicable Me is a great movie! :))

p.s.s: ok i really got too much into high fashion
brands already!

2010-07-08T09:45:00.003-07:00

picture adapted from: jil&jak

im not being realistic.

just told the whole world what kind of dream man
im hoping for.

hehe.

its just like asking for the moon and the stars.

life is just not fair in terms of looks and your
race. i choose to be myself... defying gravity.

2010-07-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

i felt a tinge of sadness. :(

becos i didn't manage to get the "S".
i thought i did well, but i guess the interviewers were
thinking otherwise or have other reasons for not picking
me. fair enough, competition was indeed very stiff.

i think partially becos i do not have the relevant
experience they are expecting. AT LEAST I TRY OK!
though i kind of knew that i can't make it at all.

private companies do not give so much incentives.
that's what ive learnt.

after graduation, I WILL COME BACK TO TEACHING
LINE OK! that's for sure! and kids, pls behave and be
good!

at least a consolation that i still got into the course and
have the opportunity to further study. if not i will still
be stuck in being a useless freeloader in school.

nevertheless, i will treasure 3 more weeks of work-school
life. in fact, being in education sector is very enriching and
its way better than jobs at other places.

im so determined to work hard and get my ASS to school.

wait for me! 2 years, that's what i asked for. maybe my mind
has changed but my heart and experience hasn't.

i hate other jobs. esp with CIMB, its a fucking retard job and
the fucking rude admin manager ought to be slack badly.
haha. i will never enter into this banking and finance line.

scrap the CIMB topic.

i have tons of bills to clear off. all thanks to my extravagance
madness. at least its worth it! i rather buy now than later,
if not Chanel prices will raise higher.

Chanel used to be $2-3k and surprisingly its like doubled!
wa liao. i better work my ass or else i will get it burnt!

no matter what, i will do my very best.

START NOW! THE FUTURE IS HERE! :)))

2010-07-06T01:53:00.000-07:00

i don't wear cheapo things.

i used to wear, when i was just a student and in a fucked up
relationship.

because i used to believe in scrapping and saving for money
on investing on a very fucked up ex-bf (whom i forgot his
name) for other things.

sorry, im so over that period. also thanks to this fucker
i got my life back and realised that life must be treasured and
pampered while I can.

respect yourself. be realistic.

like i said, why have a man? get a Chanel. man can break up
with you but not a Chanel Classic.

single girls, don't sacrifice your desire for men. you worked
hard for it, you deserve it. if you think he is your life partner,
YOU STILL NEED TO BE PAMPERED AND REWARD
YOURSELF!

for married wives with family, i can understand. sometimes
saving is hard. especially for the kids. breaking down costs
leads to different categories.

however, for me, i just need my family, deg, work, money,
eye-googling and dreaming on luxury goods, going for sales
and friends and also God. :))

go for quality, not Quantity!

2010-07-04T10:26:00.000-07:00

handsome guys = happy ever after in relationships & marriages?

NOT.

unless you are those few lucky ones who got the whole
package goodies. but still, not so happy ever after!

life is full of unexpectedness.

there are ups and downs. being with a handsome guy doesn't
guarantee you a life time happiness, admiration from peers
and people on the roads. maybe for a moment or a period of time.

just take a second to think, do they REALLY know what
"meaningful" shit the girl has to handle?

look at some factors you have to go through just to get
a HANDSOME boyfriend:

insecurities, pangs of jealously, mockeries from
other desperate bitchy girls who wishes to get their hands
on handsome boyfriend, hidden secrets, cheating, distance,
arguments, screaming contest, pain, hurt, heart broken,
waste of time, money, energy, constantly suspicious,
isolation, friends only can listen (but can't really help you anyway),
feeling useless and other stupid reasons.

yeah i know most girls will disagree with me for various reasons, for
i dun care a damn. if you still think that you can tie your man down
by controlling him, im sorry to say this:

YOU ARE REALLY STUPID!

then again, there will be people saying, boys varies in
character and attitude and here and there and here and there
and here and there and never-ending reasons.

i know that. its people's opinions and i do not have the
right to judge people. so all i can say that is,

DEPENDS. but not for me, dating a handsome guy
is the worst option. or rather, i choose to be a
celibate. :)

i do wish to have a boyfriend but after taking a good
look at it, i changed my mind.

I rather have a Chanel bag. ok, im being very dishonest,
i want an HERMES BIRKIN. HAHA! :))))

so, the question now still lingers,

do you still want a handsome boyfriend?

2010-06-24T10:07:00.001-07:00

omg.

i can't believe im going to schhhhhhhh tomolo. :(
ahhhh. i must think positive.
CHANEL CHANEL CHANEL CHANEL CHANEL.
that's what i can think of for the moment.

Today is Michael Jackson's 1st year death anniversary. :(

2010-06-21T04:05:00.001-07:00

TIME,

can you pls be slower?

Badass side of Fashion Industry

2010-06-21T03:30:00.000-07:00

i don't give a shit if Aaron Kok says that im trying too hard
to vogue or be a model shit.

the truth is,

YOU ARE JUST AN ORDINARY SALES PERSON
WITH FILTHY MOUTH.

well everybody is a salesperson, because what im going to
talk about. SOME PEOPLE WILL NOT LIKE IT.

but i don't care.

so what if you have a Diploma in Fashion Design?
you are just filled with negativity about
people's creativity and other wannabes.

weren't you once a novice trying to learn and make a name
for yourself? oh wait, doesn't that make you a hypocrite too?
don't people have to start from scratch? stop looking at one side.
people may just do it for fun and some other reasons.

babies don't walk overnight.

if they think they have the "potential" but you think they
are not, just leave them alone and channel your annoying
comments somewhere else. it seems that your feedback is
always negative. i don't see you "loving" people. isn't what
Christians are supposed to do?

i don't care how many supporters you have, you are just
a small, immature boy.

i admire your styling skills, however, once you open your mouth,
it REALLY STINK LIKE A CHOKED UP GARBAGE.

*pukes.

and yes, i will not buy any of your clothes because i rather
buy other designer brands than yours.

thank goodness you deleted yourself. :)

this apply to others too.

I will definitely remember those annoying asses who
delete. I WILL MAKE SURE YOU WILL NOT WORK
WITH ME IN THE FUTURE!

THANK YOU.

CHANEL

2010-06-17T04:23:00.000-07:00

why do women need man when we can have Chanel?

man can breakup with a woman for a million reasons.

BUT

a Chanel bag can't.

SO THAT EXPLAINS WHY I AM SINGLE.

i just love the Chanel 2.55.

2010-06-13T09:00:00.000-07:00

raised an eyebrow earlier about City Harvest Church (CHC)
hitting the headlines with bad news. unsure whether
if it is true or not, i just hope they would be honest and
transparent about the money management.

pls do tell the true facts that doesn't betray your
conscious.

i used to be a CHC member and left mainly because
i do strongly believe in God, NOT the people. sounds
contradicting and if you ask me why. all i can say is that
i have a few personal bad experience with them.

people can always fabricate and hide things up without
the other parties' knowledge.

i wonder if the reason CHC is going through this is because
their are going to the next level of obstacle like Pastor
mentioned before, you have to make sacrifices and face
tribulations if you want to go higher or want bigger things.

hmmm......... well, maybe. two issues raised within
two weeks. i think the Singaporean blogger is a real
bugger trying all way out to sabotage Pastor Kong.

hope the truth be out soon. i guess everybody wants to
hear the answer. for me, i hope its not true even though
i disagree with them on various issues. some may gloat
and some may be terribly anxious about it.

i hope its not a cheating case like another charity
organisations. its people's money, not business
transactions.

2010-06-04T22:21:00.001-07:00

Yay yay yay!!!!

School's out and holidays are in!!!

will update soon!!! :))

Happy Holidays everyone! :))

2010-06-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

SORRY I CANNOT HEAR YOU, I'M KINDA BUSYYYY!

2010-05-24T08:30:00.000-07:00

im just working hard for my future.
another 2 more months left!

maybe i just need to change my mindset.
its just the people in the workplace are annoying me!!!
thank goodness, for some teachers who talked to me
and kept me sane throughout these period.

another 3 more days to holidays!!!

2010-05-11T10:32:00.000-07:00

i don't care if the whole world thinks im an idiot for
the love of blah. i just strongly think sheila sim (singapore's
so to speak "only top model") is the best for being a
disgusting bitch - in a bad way of course.

dun ask me why i don't like her at all. becos i just think
she's mad disgusting. humble? did i just hear humble???
hell no man.

ya ya ya, i know she left studying to pursue model.
WHATEVER OK.

if ive got the height, looks and the X-factor, i would definitely
beat the shit out of her. i dun care about her personal life, its
her damn biz.

i do think people who read this entry must be thinking,

"HEY SHEILA SIM GOT THE GOODS OK? NOT LIKE
YOU! YOU DO NOT HAVE THE HEIGHT, LOOKS,
BLAH BLAH BLAH. HOW CAN YOU COMPARE TO HER?
YOU ARE NOTHING BUT JUST LOSERISH! LOOK AT
YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR BEFORE TALKING."

argh. quit yapping gibberish. i know, you are supporting
her or whatsoever reasons.

to me, she just suck. not forgetting other bitchy female models
ive met. ew.

i totally disagree to Singapore top model issue. suddenly
somebody becomes a model out from some mysterious area.
maybe in the fashion industry somehow people might say
i have no knowledge about Singapore Fashion background?

so what?

Singapore has a long way to go man. we all know that
in this modelling industry is not a long term plan. its
so perishable. one moment you are in, the next day you
are out. So, argue amongst yourself. being realistic enough
we are not like other big time fashion capitals like
Paris, Milan, New York, London, Japan etc.

as a matter of fact, Singapore is still growing. it seems that
the structure here is developing very slow. well, what to do.
we still need foreign talents afterall. many lessons to learn
and we need opportunities to grow and progress forward.

dun tell me Sheila Sim is good ok. in my opinion, i dun think
highly of her. its just work and glam that you admire.
the rest is just no quality.

thumbs down Sheila Sim. you really SUCK. period. ;)

2010-05-11T10:28:00.000-07:00

right.

i have accepted my fate for the next 2 years to mugggggggg.
i have to work 100 times harder than i used to do during poly
and sec sch.

its not that easy i know. we are talking about UNIVERSITY.

its a very difficult decision to make. however, the ultimate result
will still be school and higher learning. nevertheless, without a
degree i will sure die and left out in this cruel world.

either you are in or out.

let's face it. sometimes, reality is harsh.

its mugging time!

My Idea Wedding

2010-05-04T07:36:00.000-07:00

Cross Dress!

My future husband to wear the wedding dress while i wear the suit. :)))

i think no one will ever want to marry me. hahahahahaha!

2010-04-17T10:34:00.000-07:00

what the hell am i doing for the past few years of my life?

why did i not work hard and open up my eyes?????????????

i could have own a Chanel, more Gucci(s), Viktor and
Rolf, Alexander Mcqueen, Balenciaga, Christian Louboutin
and the list goes on.

i realise that i am so in love with weird and awkward shoes.
hehe. that what i call unique and stands out from the
rest!!!!! :)))

im lazy to upload some pics. i will do it if time is on my side.

arghhhhhh. never mind. i will work my butt off nowwwwwww!

2010-04-10T09:47:00.000-07:00

a very sensitive topic.

i was wondering, why are kids having kids themselves nowadays?
is it the latest trend to be pregnant at the age of 13? i maybe slow
in typing down my questions, i just can't get it off my head.

no wonder there are so many social problems these days and
the poor children are getting more behavioural problems.
even though i have not done my research and take a closer
look at the statistics yet, but indeed there are more problems
as i observed my environment.

the real issue is this, are they really matured and ready for it?
having they thought of the repercussions?

raising a child is NOT EASY at all!

ive seen cases of children in the most difficult situation
and it really frustrates me to see them bawling their eyes out
becos their parents used the money funds from the different
charity aids to buy branded goods rather than sending them to
school. WTF.

the worst reason ive ever heard: "My mummy didn't give me
money at all and I got no money to eat"

if you are violently objecting my opinions and think that ive
absolute no idea about the topic on Parenting. WHATEVER,
I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT IT.

be considerate. take responsibility.

2010-01-31T17:28:00.001-08:00

to stay or to go?

till now im still vetting through my thoughts about
the pros and cons on this job im currently in. it
is not a 100% issue whether or not i can get into the
other job becos there are more than thousands of
applicants applying for it while the employer
has a requirement to hire only 20 odds.

sometimes luck is important.

not that im always complaining about it. the future is
blurry and full of mystery and i certainly hope things
will be better after june or maybe after the other side
has accepted me.

working life is never easy. i just hate to work with
unreasonable people and sucky attitude. this is the real
world i have to accept and get adapted to.

sign. will there ever be a dream job for me to pursue
and that i can be truly satisfied without complaining?

so unlikely. :(

2009-12-31T10:22:00.000-08:00

summarising all the memories i had and
closing off one last entry for the year 2009! (though i know
im not a faithful blogger).

this year wasn't really a good year for me all thanks to
economic recession that people who do not want to pay
their debts and blah blah blah reasons which affects
my entire plans i had for uni and work.

graduated from retarded poly early this year with good ending.
im glad that results turned out to be good and improved. :)

finding a temp job during this period of time is difficult.
Sent in thousands of emails and my resumes to desired jobs
but they called in too late when ive already found other jobs :(

working in dramatic CIMB bank with a fucked up
manager and useless colleagues. i made a perfect choice
to quit if not, i will never survive there. i had learn
a few lessons. its definitely not a joke in the real
harsh world where everyone has a gun in their pockets.
Solution: to protect yourself against others.

Jobster sucks btw. i will be extremely careful whenever it
comes to this.

slacking for sometime before i join NIE. how irony that
i missed studying. heee!

had made a few friends from different events. it seemed
that ive been going out more actively especially SALES!!!
im still creating a long list of agenda for 2010.

nevertheless, thank God for providing me with other
alternatives. school will be starting soon, i hate it when
holidays are soon over. :(

before i go, i would like to wish everybody a
Happy 2010 New Year!!!!

P.S: i hope 2010 will be a better year ahead for me.

till then SEE YA! enjoy the long weekends! :)))

2009-11-07T09:53:00.000-08:00

life's good. so many things to do and more exciting events
coming up. hope things dun screw up last min!!!!

by the way, Hello TOKYO.

i might be closing down this blog. so, maybe this will serve as
a bitter-sweet memory for me to look back and have a good
laugh.

till i come by again. BYE BYE!

2009-10-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

im super determined to get 3 pairs of louboutins by 2009/2010.

pretty upset when i heard the louboutins were not available last
weekend. *twisted and pouts lips.

anyway, at least a long wait for a Chloé.

:))

This is It!

2009-10-05T08:29:00.000-07:00

im so looking forward for Michael Jackson's movie:
This is It!

credits: http://www.michaeljackson.com

3 more weeks to gooooo! can't wait!

Relationships?

2009-09-21T10:11:00.001-07:00

by looking at my life. perhaps i have gone through
real tough and good slacking times. ive learned a few
things what i should and shouldn't do when it comes
to working.

anyway, that's in a past. ive moved on. i dun see a future
of myself working with childish people who do not
have the basic common sense.

Thank God i am going back to studying and also
working. the not so good news is ive got to travel to
another end of the world to study. heee.
anyway, just for the cert its all worth it. :)

aja aja fighting!!!

upon listening to Love Hurts by Incubus, i think the song
is somehow using some puns. "love hurts, but sometimes its
a good hurt". i dunno whether i should laugh or cry with it.
it sounded sad at the same time encouraging those who are
really at the point of depression.

i went to the place again. so nostalgic. thinking of "mister
some-other-day" is not that nice, i should stop opening up
the file and peek again becos i found another clone
of him. im not sure if there's a fate in the first place.

oh well.

i still miss Richard Lui. handsome guy yoooooooooooo!
hope he sees this and that will put a smile on his face.
no doubt he's in Atlanta, USA. i wish him all the best
for his future endeavours.

dun ask me how am i going to meet my Mr Right.
im like 95.99999% lazy to find one.

by the way, any sales coming up?

2009-08-29T21:45:00.000-07:00

i hate working with unprofessionals. 2 fucking weeks,
10 fucking days to go before i get my break.

i want the time to pass faster so i can get my break asap
and stop seeing the unprofessionals!!!!

one wrong decision can break you terribly and ruining
your happiness plus time and money. its not worth it at
all!

i hope the unprofessionals will be sacked. they do not deserve
a title of executives or assistant managers. office bullies and
politics. damn, they are one hell of irritating people and i think
they are useless!

anyway, no point talking about it. a trash will always be a
trash.

2009-08-05T10:11:00.000-07:00

if there's any point of time i would like to go back,
it will definitely bringing my recent self back to the
time i met someone a few years ago, maybe things will be
different.

im moving on. thanks for being part of my memory.

well, life's a bitch sometimes, things may not go in your way,
unless a deja vu can touch you. im glad im in a safe zone
for now. im still a prisoner and being tortured in an extremely
uncomfortable environment is not a joke at all.

this is the real working world.

i want to break free asap!

im still dreaming about Louboutins.....

2009-07-05T08:23:00.000-07:00

omg. im so not looking forward for tomorrow.
i hope these days will appear to be positive.
if not i have to wait for 2 months later.

i will update again.

2009-06-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

if the newspaper reports about any crazy celebrity died,
i wouldn't be surprise. however, Michael Jackson's death
was one of the biggest, shocking news i have heard and
i believed it didn't cross most of the people's mind.

i wish Michael will revive from his grave, rock the Thriller
and danced one more time. which i know its so impossible.
he didn't lead a good life too. maybe this is the price a
celebrity has to pay in exchange of popularity.

i was pretty disturbed and upset that Michael died so suddenly.
its just like he didn't say good bye and leave too soon. :(

i have not attend any of his concert yet!!!!!! :((

no one can ever be like Michael. What a pity, a legend is gone forever.

Rest In Peace Michael. we love you and will always remember you.

Till i get over you

2009-06-16T10:54:00.000-07:00

sometimes i watch the world go by
i wonder what it was like
to wake up every single day, smile on your face
you never try

we both know
we can't change it
but we both know
we'll just have to face it

chaque fois que tu t'en vas
you just bring me down
je pretends que tout va bien
so I'm counting my tears

till I get over you.

2009-06-14T09:06:00.000-07:00

IT fair wasn't much of an eye opener. in fact, we
almost got drowned in the crowd. i'm surprised
Sony's booth was absent on the third level.

it never fails to be different from the rest of the
big players' booth. haha, maybe its due to economy
recession?

i took a stroll around orchard road and finally
found the perfume from Chloé. :)

nice!!!!!

even though i do not fancy Fendi as much as
other brands, these shoes attracted me to their
stores.

upon typing down all these, i can't help but salivate at all
of these. :))

ok. will update again soon. good nite all.

2009-06-09T10:14:00.000-07:00

just as my mum used to tell me,

"work hard now, so that you do not need
to suffer later..."

now im suffering. too many regrets.
every night being anxious over results despite
of securing 3.XXX for the final semester results.

competition is super stiff and no replies so far.
my tears are dried up. maybe its time for plan no.2.

be a road sweeper or wonton mee seller.........

:(

2009-06-05T06:10:00.000-07:00

too many unexpected things or rather i should
say expected things happen due to the current
situation i am facing now. i believe im not alone
being in a deep thought of what to do next.

i just can't comprehend what people are thinking
at times. im getting tired of this and i need to
be somewhere else that i can relax and break free
from problems.

i guess, this is the part that is the issue that keeps
bothering me.

nevertheless, i put my life into God's hands and
let Him decide where i should go.

hai. bo pian..... :(

2009-05-31T10:37:00.001-07:00

jotted out from my sleep just a few moments ago.
you must be wondering what the hell am i doing
here typing this but i have my rant!

These were featured in my dreams!

yes, its Christian Louboutin. the highly sought after
shoes (for me).

aren't they pretty?

2009-05-31T08:29:00.000-07:00

i was pretty surprised when Susan Boyle didn't win
first place in Britain's Got Talent. she has won my
heart and i truly think she did well for her performances
and proved everyone so wrong about stereotypes.

lessons were learnt during these days of my life.

suddenly, most of the people ive know are settling down:
getting married and building a new home.

i do question myself about settling down. but i guess
i have to wait for a few years down the road and see how
things are getting on as i still wish to carry on my
singlehoodness till i officially get married to the man
i really love as well as he also must love me more than i
do.

now my priorities are different and i am still young and
still thinking about many things that i wish to accomplish
before i can embark another life.

i am very scared of getting married. dun ask me why, becos
anything can happen and yes, i need a lot of time to think!

anyway, just hope for things to become better and productive
for the next few months.

Great Singapore Sale is here in Singapore by the way. i would
love it if my favourite stores would give me a 80% +++
discount which i think would be impossible or maybe possible.
hahahaha. depends for now.

lastly and randomly, i would love to thank my family and friends
who have been sharing with me all these experiences i have
gone through in life. i have definitely grown a lot from it.

hehe. Good night everyone and Happy June holidays! :)

2009-05-24T09:51:00.000-07:00

if there's one wish, i wish that i could turn back the
time and be different maybe you will think differently
of me by then.

but its all over already.

nothing can change the fact that it has happened, i had
bits and pieces of memories even though its not really
vivid at all. i do treasure those precious moments even
though its only a few days.

damn, i should have done something, but its always
at my disadvantage.

i wish i wish i wish for so many things in life now.
obstacles upon disappointments, i have to accept these
in life.

i hope miracles happen.

i also wish that PICO will be back to kick Mercury's
ass and ban them from organising anymore fashion
events, or best, Singapore Fashion Festival. over
a piece of crap paper compared to days of hard work
and facing people's black faces is worthless.

maybe if i have done something and the time is on
my side, things would have been different. i just
wonder why are these not by my side?

love it or hate it, i just have to accept the fate that lies
ahead it now.

however, i still wish for the best.

2009-05-20T09:07:00.000-07:00

im hereby to announce:

I SO WANT ADAM LAMBERT TO WIN
AMERICAN IDOL!

pls vote for him! he's such a honey!
plus, singing well wins my vote for him.
he's incredibly talented!

:)

Random

2009-05-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

ive a few thoughts about something but i didn't
expect it to be very accurate! erm. is that entirely true?

i hope the thought comes true. haha. maybe.
im not sure...

2009-05-14T09:42:00.000-07:00

i hope its just a dream, but i think sometimes we've
got to accept our fate. i guess laughing at people's
misfortune is a right smack back to a person's face.

ive been feeling really aghast to many incidents
recently and thought to myself what do i really want in
life. nonetheless, all bad things happen to good people.
nothing in this world is as innocent as it seems.
let's face it, reality is harsh and people's mind are
ever changing.

the hope in my heart seems to be fading away.
i wonder where it will lead me to. i just hope the
chance will never slipped away as i really want
this fight.

2009-05-10T09:26:00.000-07:00

just penning down my thoughts before i go to bed and
start off a new day.

today marks the end of the Audi Fashion Festival 09.
its fast, but nevertheless, there were different interesting
encounters and challenges faced during this event.

there's one wish i have in mind is not having Mercury MC
to organise the event. even though they have a large pool of
contacts (isn't this what they are supposed to do?)

in my very honest opinion, fashion is fun and exciting but
i think Mercury MC does not make up to its name and
contradicts themselves in many ways. well, even though
they felt that i do not have the right to say, they do not
treat people right and majority of them are not being
professional in their jobs.

overall, the experience is quite mixed up and i think i would
rate it as fair.

ive learnt many important lessons from here and i will take
it with me and remember those who cared and shared things
with me. just want to say, thank you so much to everyone
who had gone through with me!

remember every little things as you may never know it
might affect the future.

that's my learning journey. :)

if any sees this and feel that no one appreciate you at all,
i think you do deserve a credit for yourself by giving
yourself a pat! good things are on your way! heee!

lastly, thank God for all these experience and im glad
ive opened up my eyes to see things in a different angle.

Good nite everyone!

Just another rant!

2009-05-07T04:05:00.000-07:00

YES! im so effing pissed with Mercury MC again!
pls close down asap and DO NOT organise
any more fashion shows and other events!
you have already tarnish your reputation by organising
it very poorly and not treating people right!

they sent me a sms 1 hour before the reporting time telling
me not to come for the show. WTF! my precious time was
gone just like that! after weeks of anticipation and
squeezing my schedule, it just take them a minute or
second of sms to tell me not to come!

i called them back and they told me a bunch of crap without
apologizing and said, "OH other people also said the same thing!
and pls dun come at all, YOU MUST UNDERSTAND US! and and
and we are not confirm everything yet."

What the Fuck! how do you expect us to understand you
if you do things last minutes! so much for being a "good"
business partner.

thanks for destroying my mood and effort! you are
not appreciated at all!

Mercury MC does not specialise in events management
and i think they need to take MC forever. SCREW THIS
COMPANY!

whatever. they are so irresponsible with their actions!
posting this is meaningless becos they are beyond hope.
its not worthy making me very angry for nothing and
losing my happy cells is not cool at all.

ok, i will stop here. its totally pointless to be angry over
a bunch of shitheads who knew nothing about being
professional and responsiblity. why are they
awarded degrees in the first place? they had really
made my day an unhappy one.*pukes

anyway, screw that topic. i really regretted sending my
particulars in and joining them for the second time.
twice bitten thrice shy.

im super determine to own any pairs of drop dead
gorgeous shoes from louboutins, hardys, zanottis,
weitzman, etc etc. haha. i dun care. no one is going
to stop me and i will beat the shit out of some annoying
people who thinks they know about class but in fact
they dun!

haha. on the brighter side, lucky i was still at home posting
this, if im outside and that shitty company calls me last min
just imagine how much i will curse them under my breathe.

right now, they better not piss me even more or else i will
definitely ruin their name and they can kiss their reputation
goodbye.

2009-05-04T11:15:00.000-07:00

what the hell has happen to blogger's fonts?

i was browsing some items and came upon these heeless
heels...

the shoes! the shoes! the shoes! the shoes!
omg, this is one of a kind! i would love to own it
one day! (AND I WILL! its just a matter of time only!)

2009-04-28T08:11:00.001-07:00

Mercury MC. you are the most annoying company ive
ever worked with!

im very pissed off with their organisation and i am
absolutely assured that they are the people who treat
volunteers very poorly.

why on the earth are sponsors still supporting mercury
mc and complimenting them doing a good job??? or rather
i think mercury did well in covering up all the shitty jobs.

i strongly think that PICO can do a better job than them!

i dun mind being a strong competitor the next time round,
and if i have the chance and take over the fashion festival
rather than let them ill treat people. why organise events
while you can't organise a simple volunteering schedule?
pls evaluate yourself and your staffs!

(P.S: i can do a better job than them! i should be the president
and director instead!)

so irritating. people have their own timing and whilst
they do things last minute without thinking about other
people. where's your professionalism and business
responsibility and ethics?

all gone down to the drain? what the hell man! why bother
to study so much if you do not put it into practice?

i just wondered man. what's wrong with these people?

2009-04-26T09:55:00.000-07:00

EDITED POST!

credits to Hester! thanks for informing me
about the Star Awards. hahahaha!

sunday night fever.

it was just a week ago since ive a fever and yet again i got

it last night! what an ass! the weather is injecting illness

and flu all around my neighbours too!

goodness gracious me!

after watching Star Awards 2009, i felt quite

unjustified especially some actress who are REALLY

talented and hardworking like Pat Mok and some others.

what a shame some of them got it effortlessly by just

looking good and skinny without showing any personality

or black face. that's all.

well, reality is harsh. let's face it, who doesn't like to

see pretty and handsome looking people? world is

never fair in the first place.

the results for the Star Awards 09 were as expected.

ive heard most of the rumours, (not sure if they were true or

not), that some actress really can't act a shit and just have to

pose and get their cash rolling into their bank account.

i wish im like that too. thinking about the positive side,

life is different for each and everyone of us.

however, i really like Joanne Peh's purple and white dress.

seems tight fitting for her and i doubt i can wear it. hahahahaha!

i hope everybody have a great week ahead. for me, im still bumming

around and still waiting for gold to drop from heaven. hehe.

good nite y'all! take care and see ya!

2009-04-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

is it me or is it the entire Singapore is suffering from

1000000000 degrees celsius?

its so freaking hot like hell now! ive never encounter a

rainy day that's so HOT! i had fever just a week ago and

now my body feels so hot!!!!!!!

maybe stop global warming campaign didn't help much

becos after all we are still using electricity and other

energy consumption goods.

putting that matter aside, im very interested in a new

variety show debuting 女王本色 Paris and Milan.

Zhou Chong Qing, Patricia Mok and some other

actors and actresses did a great job in re-enacting

different scenes of ugly Singaporeans and other

funny social issues in Singapore.

Nice job for all, especially Chong Qing playing "Auntie

Lucy" who always sprain his/her neck on every single

episode! hahahahahahahaha! he should be playing funny

roles long time ago and clinch top 10 most popular actors

during Star Awards!

unlike some actors and actresses trying to be funny but

they just DON'T have any natural talent even to act or

portray funny! well, you know who you are.

Chong Qing is the man who is the talent not just based on looks!

i would strongly recommend everyone who understands

chinese or anyone to watch this variety show. at least it makes

me laugh till ive got stomach cramps. hehe.

i think the 2nd episode is funnier in the MRT station. hahahaha!

anyway, catch more of these episodes from channel 8! hehehehe.

finally im watching something very funny.

Calvin Klein Season 2008 woes...

2009-04-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

yo hoo! ok giving some credits back to yahoo!

must use harvard referencing! gosh! im still can remember
this during my polytechnic days!

sheesh. its been weeks, months, years since ive blog. finally ive
the time to revamp my blog. it doesn't matter to me how highly
viewed other blogs are or who viewed my blog unless those
who are closest to me.

things have been going pretty good for me. ups and downs are
expected some points of life of cos. if my life is filled with
happiness without negativity then there's something wrong
with me already and i would not be breathing on earth anymore.

upon typing this ive realised ive changed into another person.
some may list it as materialistic, but i think its woman's nature
to be pampered and be self-independent.

according to Ms Sumiko Tan says, "Why women should wait
for men to buy shoes for women when women can have the
ability to afford and be educated?"

well, i think what she said was true and i totally agree with her
statement.

thanks to my mum who have been very supportive towards
me all these years, this is what ive become and words cant
describe how much appreciative i am towards her. i used to
be really silly and be stuck on a pile of trash while i can do
something better for myself. reality hits me when my mum
advised me with her impactful statement.

argh! i really regretted not buying the Calvin Klein's
Season 08 pleated dress!!!!! now and then when i go to the CK
retail shop, i always asked the sales personnel if they sell
the pleated dress by showing them the picture i took
at CK retail shop in HK and they darted a strange look as
if i was from Zehsqisekiuabmursienloquesnuenziuwppwefa
planet.

all the replies are the same:

Sales Lady: "Sorry, we no longer have this... this was last year's season"

Me: "CRAP!" i was in the midst of my thoughts. fighting back
and prevent myself from blurting the word out of my mouth.
So, I just smiled and turned away.

WTH! it could be in their store room but they just dun
want to show it to me!!!!!! i really want that dress so badly!!!!
why can't they go the extra mile for me to get the dress and
sell it to me?? WHY WHY WHY WHY???

*bawl out loud.

hai i guess i have to try my luck during sales.

readers, if you have any information about CK ladies
apparel sales, pls inform me ASAP! private or public
sales, pleaseeeeeeeeeee tell me and drag me along with
you if it is a private sales. i will do anything!!!!!!!!!!!
(exclude sex or any explicit actions and etc. terms
and condition apply. hehehehehe!)

*pouts.

shit! i really love that dress not only its chic. even though its
so simple but the cutting and design kills! omg, i really hope
they decide to bring back this pretty dress to Singapore. im
on the verge of tears and slapping myself right now, which i
know it would not be any use becos things cannot be undone
anymore.

to me, it look really nice...

2009-03-31T00:49:00.000-07:00

im revamping my blog. will be right back with updates soon!

see ya!

Nicole, Winner of Cycle 5 America's Next Top Model????? NOT!

2009-03-18T04:22:00.000-07:00

i saw Nicole Linkletter - the winner of cycle 5 America's
Next Top Model at City Hall MRT heading towards
Pasir Ris.

yes, i dun seemed to be excited about it. read on to find
out more. if not, [x] yourself out.

its just a personal opinion.

i took a first glance and walked towards another ang moh
model-like girl (i assume is her room mate) and Nicole.
They were talking and that's when i saw her and i
immediately recognise her face that appeared on TV!
CONFIRM 200% its her!

i was quite eager to ask her if she's Nicole from ANTM.
so i did approach her and asked, "Hi, are you Nicole from
ANTM?"

Nicole kept quiet. Her facial expression changed and
shook her head. her model like friend then reply back to me
said, "there are many people who also said she looks like
"Nicole" all the time."

being very doubtful, i thought to myself, issit meh? it can't be
NOT Nicole. i know Nicole is in Singapore for two months or so.
moreover, i saw many models' faces during Singapore
Fashion Festival last year and also others.
CANNOT BE A DUPLICATE OR CLONE RIGHT?

so i just replied, "what a shame" and looked back at Nicole,
"you really looked like her." and i walked away.
wa liao, i really swear she is Nicole. why would a person deny
herself that she's ANTM when she IS from ANTM?

it really puzzle me so much. moreover, America Next
Top Model is the most watched show on television and
there's world broadcast. that makes me realised, no wonder
she's the least favourite and not popular among ANTM!

i didn't make a single mistake at all! its really Nicole
from ANTM. what a shame, i think Tyra and the rest of
the judges chose the wrong person to be ANTM.

i believe Tyra Banks talks about good qualities of being
top model, for example setting good examples and also
displaying the best in the fashion industry. from what i see
Nicole doesn't fulfill any of these criterias and i think
she do not deserve to win! my instincts were so right about
it! Nik should have won!!!!!

now my impression of her has changed permanently!
i will rate her VERY BAD and VERY POOR. why bother
to participate to become ANTM when you know that
this career line you are bound to be famous and
recognised by many people? and yet she deny herself.
so stupid!!!!!! how can companies endorse her too?
she can always deny that she represent or advertise
for XYZ company or magazine.

once again. SO STUPID!

i remember reading a newspaper article about Straits Times
interviewing her about the fashion industry prospects in
Singapore and the "surviving industry that economic recession
does not affect at all" and Nicole said she chose Singapore/Asia
over Europe becos the industry is better here. something like
that. omg. WHAT THE CRAP! Europe fashion industry is so
flourishing and they are very creative in fashion and its in
their blood! what no future?

twice again. VERY STUPID ANSWER!

models think that they are so pretty and glamourous.
who do you think you are? you ang mohs dun earn as much
as we asians and you dun have the right to despise us becos
we can't speak your slang language and dun have the same
white skin as you! its discrimination!

anyways, Singapore's fashion industry cannot make it.
the people are not humble and down to earth and they do not
listen to the local's needs. why go haute couture when you dun
even know a shit about it and be so westernised?

where's our identity? whatever it is, if im able to make it
into a fashion editor, i will never allow such people to
misrepresent Singapore and be more fashion forward
catering to everybody's needs rather than just
Blind follow the Blind.

Comments off!

2009-03-10T10:32:00.000-07:00

ive no idea how to change a blogskin. forgive me for not changing
into another one. perhaps i should start learning how to make
my own when my laziness does not occupy me.

i'll be back. i promised i will make it big and good. (:

anyway, watch this youtube videos on some famous
bloggers impersonating Dawn Yang's "im going to sydney
tomorrow!..." i can't help but find these videos very
humorous. i supposed many of you might have seen it.

Dawn Yang's :

Xiaxue's:

last but not least the very "funny" Steven Lim's:

i know its late. hahaha. in my opinion, i think not admitting
one's mistakes and not telling the truth makes the person really
ugly (<--- oh i mentioned this before to a particular bitch which i
didn't mention her name but she admitted it anyway!)

getting back to the topic again, not pinpointing fingers here
or playing sides.

just looking upon the entertainment scene, it IS a complicated
industry. no doubt fame is gained but privacy have to be paid
heavily. whether plastic surgery or not, its up to a person's
decision to admit it or not. i admire those who dare to say it
out and have the guts to show it.

anyway, hypocrisy is dangerous and it happens to everybody.
pls pls pls, whether you like it or not, i suggest people shouldn't
be going around and say "i hate hypocrites and liars". let's be
honest and ask yourself. who hasn't lied before? who hasn't fall
back on their promises?

who knows?

2009-01-18T07:29:00.000-08:00

is this the last time?

im just wondering. after 3 years of studying in rp is going
to end tomorrow. its so fast!!!!!!!

after all the complaining, screaming, sulking about rp's
sucky system. im starting to miss a bit of getting to know
some friends whom i have made all these 3 years of my
learning journey.

i begin to realise. it is the start of change. (:
its going to be memories and the good ones shall be kept
closely into my heart.

throughout all these years, travelling to rp was a big chore
and also a headache. nevertheless i have experience everything
from scratch and learning to be a better person. well, its not
easy travelling from east to the north! thank God that
i do have an mrt and my dad fetches me to Bishan every
morning.

things have a start, it always have an ending too.
im hoping that things will go well, smooth and
i hope results will be better this time round as compared to
last semester. upon looking at my UTs and daily grades, i can't
do much things to it anymore except to pray hard that it
can grant me to an access to local uni.

mel mel jia you!!! aja aja aja aja fighting!!!!!!

trials and tribulations!

2009-01-10T08:05:00.000-08:00

as the above title mention.
it makes me stronger at the same time, it gives
me extra heart attack!

after teaching for a year, i am completely turned
off by meanie bad people's attitude. especially those
who are extremely calculative, self absorbed, unreasonable
and brainless! its so difficult pleasing such people with my
over-limit tolerance level! anyway, ive given up on it.
nevertheless i dun lose anything at all.

just wondering, if life is so beautiful, why on earth
would these people have to spoil all the beauty of
nature and be nice? well, the perfect answer would be
the world isn't perfect in the first place.

first start off of new year, Thai nightclub explosion,
Israel attacks Palestintian conflict, killings and bombings,
the economic recession hits hard on everybody and things
just get worst every single day. people start yelling at each
other over petty issues without thinking about issue/conflict
management 101.

shit all these unnecessary problems!

maybe the world just need a break afterall. is there a day
where people just give and take? will there be a day the
earth and people be at peace?

when?

2008-12-28T08:04:00.000-08:00

2008 is so going to be over in another few days time!
BUT, im so not ready for my driving test tomorrow!
narf, im so tired of it already. ):

bought a few things recently and im still anticipating to
go Aussie or maybe Europe(?) again next year!
hello moolahs where art thou???
i shall let the pictures talk then. (:

are you thinking, is this real?
sorry for the disappointment, IT IS REAL!
bought it from isetan sale. hehe! (:

there's still more pics. but im lazy to post. off to sleep.
hereby wishing everybody have a smashing New
Year 2009 with new resolutions and dreams! (;

see ya next time!

2008-12-23T07:19:00.000-08:00

hello hello! i just got back from Hong Kong!
the air sucks but the shopping was good!

i doubt anyone reads my blog or even take a glance
due to my lack of blogging updates but nevermind,
the thing is, CHRISTMAS IS HERE!

haha! i remember last year christmas was totally
ruin by someone. since i hate to say that detesting
person name, so let's not allow this disgusting lardtard
be mentioned on this blog. (:

just reflecting about it, a series of events that has
happened to me this year. be it happy, sad, sick, angry,
envy, etc... etc... i have to thank God for these
events that happened into my life becos i have definitely
learn something from it and be more appreciative.

nonetheless, i will be graduating another 3 weeks,
its so gonna be over and next phrase of my life will
be ushered. more challenges, more ups and downs.
expectations will be higher, maybe a couple of disappointments,
but its ok, i just hope all things will pull through
smoothly and happiness is what matters the most. (:

i do not expect anything for Christmas. im
thankful for what i have now. i hope everybody will
have a fun and enjoyable Christmas this year.
A new year is coming up soon too! anyway, there's nothing
much for me to say in here. so adiyos! Have fun!! (:

2008-11-21T06:42:00.000-08:00

argh. i wonder why am i born in Singapore!
omg. i feel so misfitted here. majority like 80%
of the people whom ive met are just simply not at
my level.

the rest of the 20% are more down to earth and
true to themselves. i realised that majority of the people
whom i know doesn't like to be daring. when i see other
parts of the world, their thinking are much more liberal
and even men dare to cross dress when comes to party!

i admire these people. i think i should give a serious
thought about migrating overseas and only come back
to Singapore a few times. omg. Singapore doesn't have
enough opportunities here and i feel so squeezed up.
no doubt Singapore is a very "fine" city in terms of monetary,
clean environment and security, etc etc. but is there
anyone or any group whom i really fit into? like literally
crazy and fun bunch??

no doubt i have one khaki group. but where are the rest.
it seems that this "conservative" environment is stressing
me out and i feel so damn sick and tired about it.

argh. words can't describe what i can say now. all i know is that
im misfitted.

enemies, pls shut up.

2008-11-16T21:06:00.000-08:00

if she's a super sports star. then I AM a supermodel (: